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I found that description of the video so moving, Layla. It's confronting seeing versions of younger selves in photos let alone film, especially if it's something we've never seen before? I felt like this when I came across a stash of photos from my teens that my dad had kept. I'd never seen them before and the version of me they showed was one I had wanted to forget. Thanks for sharing this x

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exactly, never seen, perhaps a time hoped forgotten... also remembering the interior of that girl's world, versus the exterior of her seen with the perspective of 25 years... quite the thing, eh?

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loved this Layla, from a girl who was also always at her desk xx ps another yes please to a body writing workshop! x

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We are clearly like moths to a flame 🥰

Super re body workshop 💙

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I want to tap her on the shoulder and see if she’ll turn round and smile or tell me to Eff Off! 😂

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ha! well she was quite rude to her friends, so I can't guarantee anything Mel! X

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Oh, Layla, your words made me well up. The potent magic of that moment when your friend's observation shifts your self perception, is so powerful, like the breaking of a spell. This resonates deeply with me as I am trying to be my own friend and reframe moments in my past to see a different truth than the persistent narrative I have been carrying around with me for too long. I feel the vulnerability and strength in these magical acts. Thank you for sharing xx

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yes, thank you for sharing this Rachel. the reframe is quite a strange yet powerful thing. The stories we have told ourselves rewritten x

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Such a touching moment in time, Layla. Thank you for sharing it with us. It reminds me of some photos of me in my early 20s that I came across on an old acquaintance's Facebook a few years ago. They were taken before or after a pub gig, and I'm sitting facing the stage. You only see my back and my bob of brown hair. B immediately recognised me, and I was like, who even is she?

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I find that so interesting, how others can recognise us, whereas we feel so changed... thanks for sharing too Annette x

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A gorgeous note for the morning,enjoy your time in the garden.its frosty and fresh!💕

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Yes, frost was glittering when I stepped out this morning!

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Ha! Your sharing reminded me of my scholarship in San Diego, writing my thesis on the Italian translation of the Beat generation. The best time in my life. Because I felt everything was possible. The difference now is that I know that everything is possible. In all the shades, though. Working on accepting even the darkest one. trying to reconnect a white deer with a lioness. Hugs.

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Oh wow, what a fragment in time and it feels like such a tender sort of time, I love the realisation that you knew yourself all along. Body writing workshop sounds wonderful! xx

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